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In this episode, we will talk about how our love life could relate to Taylor Swift’s songs. When I was beginning to fall in love with her music, I kept seeing articles and interviews that says her songs are relatable to her fans who are in relationship with their boyfriends or ex-boyfriends or the guys they have a crush on.

When I started to love her songs, I tried to put those puzzles from her song lyrics into my puzzles of the guys I like or maybe I had crush on. So, let me share with you some.

Love Story as I mentioned in Episode 5 was the first song that made me fall in love with Taylor. I tried to relate the song with the guy I used to be attracted to when I was in secondary school. So, the only part I could match it was the one-liner when it says that they we were both quite young when they first met each other.

So, I tried to relate it with those guys I went out for dates with. Hmmm, I cannot even share it here because I couldn’t fit any of those songs with them. But this recent one or two years, I could relate the whole song to someone. We knew each other from secondary school and every time I want to find comfort, I will have flashbacks of us when we were both in school and randomly smile at each other. Randomly, she approached me at the school foyer while I was with my friends. And I wish I could ask her to tell her how we could run away now.  Yeah, those I can relate.

During the 1989 era, Taylor’s songs were being debated that it is about her friendship with Karlie Kloss and Dianna Agron from Glee which explains some gender-neutral use in the lyrics and some lyrics linking to their hangouts. That is when my brain started to reanalyse the whole songs that she has written all these while. When I relistened to it, I could relate it to my own stories. Those moments that I experienced which I tried to deny or let it go thinking that it is nothing, this time become more meaningful.

The song’s lyrics became more evidently practical to my real life, and it seems like she knows exactly my life story, line by line.   ​
Another song in 1989 that is a bit similar to Wildest Dreams is “I know Places”.

I always have this song in mind when I feel like if ever this someone would feel the same way, and worried about how the society or norm viewed our relationship, we should not be worried at all.

We can afford to go anywhere in the world where no one knows where we are.
In fact, I have been to this one beautiful place, it is so secluded and peaceful in Alaska. It is so quiet at night that the surrounding silence is deafening. You could sleep straight till morning without being bothered with any noise. And I could even hear my ears ringing and myself breathing. That place is so perfect.

I ended up talking more than I planned to about 1989 album instead in this episode apparently.
And track 11, This Love in 1989.

This song is like my formula to go to for any situations when I am already too deep falling for someone. The past heartbreak situations which I had gone through over the years, has been successful. I could go manage it whenever I find someone new. However, I believe some formulas are not effective anymore over a period of time.
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I believe you guys have heard of Style. Style is one of my favourite songs. The melody is like, well, models striding at a fashion show. Whenever I listened to it, you will see me walking confidently at a grand staircase. The beat will automatically make your walking posture better.

The song is catchy, but the lyrics is so accurate.

Personally, for me I find that whenever I am with this someone, even after not seeing her for seven years, whenever I am with her, I feel like I am so comfortable and still feel the same thing as before. I am not complaining that I don’t like it.

Becos sometimes, feelings tend to fade after a few years when you don’t see someone for quite some time. But this specific person keeps getting stronger. And it is too overwhelming that I wanted to leave or do something just so I can leave and eventually this feeling will fade. In fact, I have tried a few times but seems like this one is not working. I am not sure what to do though.

The last song in 1989 which I feel like I cannot relate yet is the last track, Clean. Okay, I would love to try to relate this song with my life, but I find that melody and lyrics is really sad.

This song is really something like an authentic love. Someone who has been with the love of her life, then she needs to let go of her for some reasons they cannot avoid.

So far, I don’t remember experiencing this except recently with this someone whom I mentioned a while ago. But I still do not want to take it to another route like how Clean is. And I hope that it will not be difficult when I will be the one who decided to leave this time.​​
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Hello Babes. Welcome to episode 5 of Women Love Women WLW Podcast.

I am looking to this episode. Finally I can discuss about a song written by my favourite artist, Ms Taylor Swift. Alrite, just to be clear before I start this.

I am the type of Taylor Swift’s fan who went to her concerts. I have been to her concert, RED, 1989, and have even travelled to Tokyo Japan for her reputation concert. I am also the type who bought her physical albums for myself and as gifts for my friends. And I am also the type who bought her merchandise which consists of bags, t-shirts, pins, guitar strings, hoodies, hoodies and hoodies from all of her album eras.
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So, in short, I am a certified Swifty.

You might be asking why, of all songs, I decided to start analysing hers instead of other artists? Well, firstly, her songs are closer to my heart. And secondly, it seems like the lyrics to her songs have been a popular topic over the recent years.

I decided to decipher some of her songs here because I have been questioning and wondering too on certain songs written by her. I have never had the chance to discuss this with anyone in detailed but since I am doing this podcast, I thought why not. Anyway, there have been a lot of chatter in our fandom and even in articles. So, why not?

Let me tell you abit of a backstory on how I fall in love with Taylor. Like my love life, I too had avoided Taylor. I caught the glimpse of her purple dress years ago on a billboard at one of the bus stops.

I was not sure at that time who or what that advertisement was for. I only saw her dress and quickly turned away because part of me told me to not look at her. Because once I do, I will fall for her and then I will end up indulging into her songs and eventually finding out more about this person.  
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Then one day, I went for karaoke with my old friends from high school.
And one of the girls decided to sing Love Story by our Taylor.

Well, there goes my curiosity. I heard the song lyrics and melody, and there and then I fall for it. Since that day, I searched for her in Youtube. Watched her TV performances in Youtube, her performances recorded by fans in concerts, and listened to all of her songs from that album, Speak Now and the ones before that including watching her daily Vlogs. This was at the end of her Speak Now era, which explains the purple dress poster. This era had ended if I was not mistaken and the current Swifties at that time were heading towards her RED era.  

RED was like my first most favourite album of hers. I didn’t think so much of anything except for some lines in Love Story which I will talk about it later.

Okay the one that I was enticed to Taylor’s song lyrics, which I started to become curious was in her 1989 era. This song called How You Get the Girl.

Frankly, during that time, I really don’t care about who she dated, any gossips, rumours, existing fandoms etc. I was not interested because her songs and lyrics are the ones that made me jumped into the Swifty train.

However, the one that brought me to the Gaylor’s fandom train was this song. From the title and the lyrics, I was already curious. Let’s put aside the story in articles that she said this song is for her friend, Selena Gomez and her boyfriend at that time. Although the news sound legit, I still find that it just doesn’t fit. Listen, I was fresh and I was analysing from a neutral point of view alrite.
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Firstly, the story in the lyrics is too detailed like, she is telling us the listeners, okay guys listen this is from my experience. I am giving you these tips. To make your girl special, have pictures of her in frames with you in the house. Place it everywhere on the walls, in the bedroom.  

And then there is this part… is this even a tip to attract your girl? I ask you babe. Why do u need to go to the extent to be drenched in the rain? Is this a movie?  I mean like okay if coincidently it is raining, and we are on the way to our girlfriend’s place, yeah I mean it is possible. Something you cannot avoid.

In the chorus the way she delivered the song is like she is telling someone to follow her tips on how to get the girl proudly. Like I am telling you now confidently, it will work. Cos I have tried. You know that kind of saying.  
Firstly, I don’t understand how she knows this if she has no experience doing it. It is so specific. And why why why would you write a story for your friend’s relationship. I mean like yeah there are people who does that probably but how could you relate to it? When I write my poems I don’t even have the view of another person. I tried, but ended up writing from my perspective especially when it relates to feelings and very detailed behaviour.

I mean probably Taylor could. She is a genius song writer who could write from someone else’s perspective in detailed, or write a song as an advice for someone else like for instance this song. Hmmmm… I don’t know.  

When I read this in 2020, which is such a coincidence, coincides with my recent life, I literally could relate to it. I could relate my life to the part which she wrote she has not seen this person for 6 months. And she is afraid if she were to tell her how she feels, this friend will maybe avoid her. I mean like I do too decided to do this recently. And I have pictures of friends but I make this specific person’s picture the main one compared to the other friends’ in my room.
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And I literally experience similar story which I clearly has lost my mind and feelings that were too too too overwhelming and this time I cannot handle it, so I decided to distant myself from her. Now listen, these lines cannot be imagine I am so sorry Taylor.

But that is it. I feel like the chorus is like a distraction to make this song not be too obvious. I might be wrong, but I feel like I can be right about my analysis.

Listen…
Normally when my guy friends asked my opinion like “Hey, is that what girls like?” “If I want to attract this girl to be my gf, is this the correct way?”
When I was acting straight that time, I will say normally yeah what I know is that is what girls like but not all girls will like it though.
I mean I will give like a generic reply.

But with those friends who knows my attraction to women, I will say in detailed like yeah, maybe flirt a bit with her. Like if she is interested to be with you, she will respond to you when you accidentally hold her hands. Or she will respond to your texts immediately instead of ignoring it and wait to reply for hours. I will give my views with more detail, filled with confidence and not generalizing. I will use some experiences of mine to help this friend of mine.

Ah well, since this song was released, I started to be curious about the way she writes her lyrics.​
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And then I ended up re-listening to Love Story and look into the lyrics. That was when I questioned myself whether that song is about a man? Is Romeo a man or a metaphor? Is Romeo the person she is in love with, and she considered herself as Juliet? Or Romeo could be her in this song, while Juliet is someone she is in love with.

Anyway, I love the part “Marry me Juliet… You will never have to be alone…” From my perspective, of all the parts in this song, this part is like so obviously written as the core of the whole story. Direct and it is what it is.

Also, during her intro of Love Story in her concerts she kept highlighting that it is about a guy whom her parents told her to not be with and apparently now, she agreed to her parent’s decision telling her to leave the guy. So, this is normally what she tells us.​
We will look into Taylor’s song’s lyrics for other episodes in this podcast. If you guys have any suggestions, do send me a message and I will look into lyrics written by other artists. I am planning to also share with you on how some lyrics are beautifully written for same gender relationships such as Secret Love Song by Little Mix.​
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Do you guys believe in the concept of chemistry in a relationship?
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The first started understanding that this exist was I Can’t Think Straight. If you have not watched this movie, I suggest you guys to go and watch it.

This movie is written and directed by Ms Shamim Sarif. The story is so beautifully written and the movie is so sweet, beautiful and will warm your heart. Talking about chemistry, the main characters, Lisa Ray and Sheetal Sheth, both of their chemistry are really out of your imagination. They are both so stunning, elegant and they really carried the character so well that you could repeat the story over and over again. Not only them, other characters such as their siblings, parents, house helpers all fit so well into the storyline.

I have watched it like 30 to 40 times since it was released or maybe more because recently during COVID lockdown, I just watched it again. I can guarantee that you lovely birds will love this movie.

So, there was this part in the movie where the main characters, Tala and Laila, played by Lisa Ray and Sheetal Sheth were discussing about how they have no chemistry with their ex and current boyfriends while walking at a park. From there, I knew what is that intangible thing which I couldn’t explain what is it, whenever I am with certain people, doesn’t matter whether is a he or a she.
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And this is ‘Chemistry’

The element of compounds 
Us 

C8H11NO2 + C10H12N2O + C43H66N12O12S2 

ESTP + ESFP 

The amalgamation of your character and mine 
The syncing of my thoughts and yours 
The feelings we shared 

Why, of hundreds of people 
Are we the exceptions 
Why you and me 

Why our determination fits 
Why our perspectives sync 

That eye contact 
How our gazes met 

Those unmet contacts 
Those magnetic actions 

How our intelligence fits 
When our counts are the same 
Why us 
And just us 

The multiplication of our strengths and limitations 
That subtraction of our strengths with our limitations 

The opposite reflections of our likes 
The square roots of our gestures 

All fit well 
Overwhelming 

We as one

Chemistry is something which cannot be forced in a relationship doesn’t matter whether in friendship, romantic relationship, relationships with classmates or even with co-workers.

Definitely at some point in time, we will experience these situations.

And then because of the awkwardness, at times we will to match ourselves with some people by forcing ourselves to do the things that they like, but eventually it doesn’t work.

How hard you try, it will be like a magnetic force that repel everything. Any words that you try to say, or anything that you might have tried start the conversation with him or her, about the weather or the news, everything will not work at all.

In fact, it will be from bad to worst. And during that moment, you wish someone else will join you in the conversation just so you could escape.
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I wrote this poem when I realized that of all 10 people in that room, I will be attracted to that only one person.

And every time I will wonder whether is it because the person is very good-looking? Then, I will look around and see there are like 2 or 3 others who are perfectly more beautiful or pretty. So, I don’t think it is about the looks only.

When I wrote the poem, this kind of situation has been happening to me very consistently. So, I will ask myself what is this? And most of the time, I noticed that it is like mutual.

Recently, which was around 2018 and 2019 when I continued my studies. I was taking my Masters at that time. I will get bored when there is none of my classmates that I could you know have a crush on. It is not that none of them are beautiful or smart. But I don’t have someone who I look forward to see when I come to class.

Then, when another batch of my classmates joined us two months later, one morning when I entered the lecture hall, my eyes automatically locked on one of my new classmates. Listen, I don’t know her name or her personality. I have zero knowledge about her. She was sitting with one of my other classmates.

I couldn’t stop myself from looking at her side which I feel like she could sense it. But she didn’t really look at me directly. So since then, I will try to find reasons to start conversation with her. After a few modules, I could feel she knew it becos she did respond to my flirting and sometimes stealing smiles when she noticed. And then at times, we will just hold each other’s arms and hands for no reasons while walking with our classmates. Listen, we do not hangout with the same group of friends neither have we talked about anything or everything.

Just so you know, she is smaller than me but very fit and of cos smart too. Oh, you know this is so funny. During one of our games when a few of our classmates had dinner together after a module completion, one of the questions was what have you all done before that no one knows? So, her reply was she kissed a girl before. I tried to control my successful guess because apparently my radar is very well calibrated. In my heart, I was like Yes! It works!
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All this while, I have been analysing and trying out what exactly is chemistry and how it works.

Is it something which is secreted from our body that the other person could also feel it?
Is it something that they can see through our eyes?
Is it something like attention given from someone to you and is very obvious?
Because what I noticed is that it is like a mutual response.


I am more focused on what I feel and observe whether the other person respond openly to it. But I have no idea if someone likes me and whether I will automatically respond to them.


Like for instance when I wrote this poem, it was about how I got attracted to one of my close friend’s friend, whom I mentioned in episode 1.


I could feel like there is somewhat a mutual response from her to my behaviour towards her. I am not discussing about whether she feels the same way because that will be out of the line. But the way she will also look at my side when I was not looking at her, or taking the opportunities to go out together with her boyfriend at that time. And how they purposely wanted to make my friend jealous and when I gave her something secretly, she asked me why am I hiding or who I am worried of?


And when we took pictures in a group, her body gesture and poses were towards mine and not the others. Is like close, close. Anyway, these are my analysis. And some of the many examples of how chemistry works in a friendship.
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Let us talk abit about how chemistry could fit into relationship between friends. I believe it is all about common grounds and similar likings that friends have with one another that could explain the meaning of chemistry.


Normally, after you chat with someone and share your hobbies, perspectives on certain issues, goals and dreams, then you realized that at times there will be opposite views.

I feel like what someone likes or not, has nothing to do with chemistry. It is common to have different interests between a couple isn’t it?

I find that chemistry is something which is not tangible. It comprises of feelings, the way someone is thinking, the aura, the energy when they meet, expressions and body language with one another.

Personally, my friends and I have opposite perspectives a times on issues we discussed but we could still hangout with one another. Another debated perspective on this would be why I could not hangout with other friends? Is it because we do not have same perspectives and interests?

Then what is the explanation when I told you about those individuals whom I mentioned? At one glance I was attracted to her but not those other 48 people in the room? Listen, I don’t even know her. What is that then?
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Apparently, there are studies done related to chemistry development between couples and in relationships. And one of them highlighted about the mutual interests, similarity in characters, values, life goals and intimacy with each other.

In which I agree only when the relationship has developed. But what about those first attractions? Can we consider that too as chemistry? Yeah until now, I still have no answer for these questions. If you guys have any perspectives on this issue or have experience this before, please share with me. I will be glad to know what is this?
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By the way, in case you are curious what is that chemical formula in the poem. Compound C8.... is actually a chemical formula of love. I decided to use this indirectly in here to match the title of the poem.
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While ESTP + ESFP are acronyms of one of the personality types which stands for Extraverted, Sensing, Thinking, Perceiving, while ESFP stands for Extraverted, Sensing, Feeling, Perceiving. What I tried to convey was how individuals with different personality could build a chemistry.​
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Thank you for listening. And see you all in the next podcast which I will be chatting about a song written by Taylor Swift from her album, 1989!

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​Namaskaar Guys. Welcome to WLW Episode 3, Wonderland of Imagination. I hope you guys have an amazing day today.

Before we begin, I would like to start this episode with Mai Tumse Pyaar Karti Hu (Mei Tumse Pyar Karti Hu).

Imagination has been part of our life since we are young. It is like where we will seclude ourselves from reality and visualize all the wonderful moments that we want. So, Wonderland of Imagination, was inspired around Dec 2015. Here it is for you.

That moment when you smiled 
Inches away from me 
Flashing your beautiful crystal-clear eyes 
With that confidence 
Intimidating me 
Speechless 

Meeting new people with confidence 
That is my forte 
But with you 
It was different 

Your sparkling eyes 
I wondered what color they were 
Pretty, comely green 
Mysterious gray 

Awestruck by your presence at that mezzanine 
Walking towards us with grace 
My heart mildly lingered to a beat 

When you started to speak to me 
Instead of the others 
I knew that was the flinch to my worries 

The walls that I built 
They were not as strong as I’d thought 

​I built my confidence 
Within those minutes of opportunity 
Exchanging curiosity 
With 
Where you are from 
What you are doing here 

I noticed that you glanced at me 
I took that chance to eliminate my intimidation 
Towards you

Fifteen minutes 
We talked 
I suggested we take pictures 
As I did not want you to slip out from my mind 
And this from your mind 

I feel your hand around me 
Your head rests on mine 
Your beautiful curly hair sending shivers up my skin 
Your touch sneaks through my soul 

Moments of that 
Still clear in my mind

When I reached for you 
A year later 
You were gone 

It’s taken months to years 
From just those few minutes 
Traces of your presence 
Your smile 
Overwhelm my heartbeat 

​That December 
We were meant to meet once 
And then never 

Though the urge to meet you 
Brought me to the places of 
my dreams 
I will never regret 

When I reached for you again 
You were . . . gone

You knew nothing about this 
That is all on me 

I knew from the beginning 
Avoidance has been the appropriate move 
Recklessly 
I let your presence illuminate 
my senses 

Imagining 
The wonderlands of imaginations 
Beautiful 
Yet, not possible

This poem is one of those few that was written in more than a page.

What inspired me to write these poems in Masterpiece in Your Heart?
This book is created after meeting one of those people who appeared in my life only a short moment, but she made a huge difference in some way. More to being an indirect push for me to go ahead and publish this book. Being a writer and having a published book is one of my dreams since I was 14.

Avoiding beautiful people or whoever that could be too appealing to me is like my go-to formula when socializing. Because the consequences after talking to them could last long which sometimes will be too overwhelming and eventually could hurt me in many ways.
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Personally, I was not sure whether I believe in love at first sight. Attracted to someone the moment the eyes met is for me impossible because how could you fall in love with someone before knowing who she is or what is her name.

This poem which I wrote is inspired by falling in love at the first sight or to be safe, attracted to someone at the first sight.

This was when I was visiting Delhi, the capital city of India about ten years ago. It was during winter in December. I went there with an ex-colleague of mine. We were invited by our colleague who was getting married in Bareily.

On one of the days after the wedding, both of us visited the historic monument well-known as Raj Ghat at the heart of Delhi. Raj Ghat is a memorial dedicated to Mahatma Gandhi. It was a very cooling that day, and the sky was grey.
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This moment happened when we were at the 2nd floor of the monument. This place is an open area where from the second floor you can see everything below and beyond the monument. My colleague and I were standing and looking around at that spot. When I turned towards the slope where we came from, I saw this person with a long curly hair, she was wearing a stylish classy fur like black coat. She was a tiny bit smaller than me like more to a moderate height, and slender. She was walking up the slope towards our direction.

Then my colleague, who is now one of my closest friends, lets call him Harry. He bumped my elbow to signal to me to look towards the same woman I was actually looking at, at that moment. He said, “Oh my god, oh my good look there. She is so gorgeous.” I was already awe-struck seconds before that signal but I acted like as if I didn’t notice her before.

I can say that my eyes couldn’t stop staring at her from the moment she was about 200metres away from us until she was right in front of us. She started to smile at us and greeted with a hi to us. And then, she walked pass by us. If I am not wrong, I did reply to her. I was blanked, frankly. But I was fully aware that both of us, me and Harry continued staring at her until she disappeared from our sight.
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Babes, since that day, I have never seen a gorgeous, stunning woman like that. As of to date, which is already ten years ago, she is still in the top of the list of the most gorgeous woman I have met in my entire life.

She is like the real-life version of those women you see in movies and then you cannot stop talking about how beautiful this person is. She looks like those actresses in Hindi movies.

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As usual, as a normal human being who is already awe-struck by a beautiful person, I look forward to seeing her again there.

For your information, during that time, Raj Ghat was not crowded. There were like less than thirty visitors in the premise.

Guess what? We saw her at the centre of the monument, but we acted cool like as if we didn’t see her. Harry already signalled me again when he saw her there.
As usual you know, act cool.


Then finally, at the exit area where we need to collect our shoes, we met her again. This was like face to face. Babes, her eyes, her chin, her cheekbones. No words can describe how perfect those features are. Well, again not surprising, I couldn’t speak.

This girl saw us, this time the smile is wider than earlier. And then she came to me and speak something to me in Hindi.  She repeated a few times ‘ek rupee’. And I was like just staring at her eyes, no response. I am no kidding. I literally did not respond cos I was strucked by her beauty.

Firstly, she thought that I am an Indian. Not surprising, I got that a lot.
And secondly, wait… I dnt know what is in my second point anymore.
Okay, we have to pay to collect our shoes which we left at the storage earlier. At that time, I was thinking ek rupee means how much is it? How would I know what to reply. Actually, ek rupee is one rupee. I only know this after I came back home and asked my Indian colleagues.

So, Harry offered her some coins while I just stood there like as if I don’t understand anything. She then asked my name and you will be surprised that I couldn’t even utter a word. Thank you to Harry. He replied for me.

I mean like have you babes experienced like this before.? Like if you see a gorgeous woman, you will be lost under their gaze and couldn’t say anything.
Yeah that is what I thought.
Do share with me your experiences. I would love to hear stories.
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After that, three of us walked outside of the area towards our drivers. We chat for a moment while waiting for them.  

Basically, since I do not want our friendship to end there, I suggested to take pictures together and then from there I was thinking that we could still keep in touch through Facebook. So, my friend suggested a wefie which is literally a good idea. I am not sure whether is because she is brought up in a place like London that makes her so cool to take photo as close as possible to me or is just her nature to be friendly.


Because if I am new to a person or when travelling like that, I will not take pictures with stranger so close like that for safety reasons and also to be cautious. I mean you won’t know. Doesn’t matter whether you are of the same gender or not.


That is one of the shortest interactions in my life that make me think about it for nearly 3 years. Honestly, I have no complains about that, because it is fated that we meet there. And that interactions brought me to the places of my dreams.
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Because of that interactions, it encouraged or I can say gave me a push to go to London, Paris and Switzerland as my first solo trip. Travelling to those places were my dreams and if I didn’t have the bait to go to meet her, I will end up delaying my plans.


Our plan was to meet each other but coincidently she was in France. Thinking about it ten years later, I am glad that we did not end up meeting in London.

What I learnt from this beautiful encounter is how there are always reasons we meet with someone in our life, however brief the interaction is.

There was one time, I was so stressed cos I could not achieve the grades B or A for my psychology modules when I was taking my Bachelor. I have no idea what are the areas that I need to improve. It was so tensed that I felt like crying. Then, one afternoon at one of the Long John Silver’s outlets, while I was having my lunch, an old woman asked whether she can join me. And I said yes. She was probably about 70 to 90 years old.

While we were having our lunch, she started talking about her daughter who was at that time studying in Australia. Her daughter is working part-time and studying full-time there. And do you know how coincidence was that her daughter is also taking Psychology? When she mentioned psychology, I was suddenly excited. This woman told me she could see that by my expression. She said it seems like I suddenly lit up when she mentioned that. So, she shared with me about how her daughter worked through work and school, which is exactly similar to my story.

And from that moment, all my worries transformed immediately from 100 to 1. I am not kidding. It changed me immediately and then by fate or universal energy, I got to learn something that is I accidentally looked at how a classmate of mine wrote her psychology essay. So, I improved mine to see whether it works. Guess what, since that moment my results changed from C, D to A and Bs. And also, since that moment, I had confidence to write articles, published it in websites, write poems and now publish my own books.

This kind of encounter with strangers by random is now common to me. Somehow, somewhere if I am disappointed, worried, or my day is bad, I will meet with random strangers in the lift, sometimes cab drivers, sometimes my neighbours and then they will tell me stories which is exactly the same as mine with somewhat solutions or positive outcomes. Then after that, in an instant, I will be motivated and most of the times those problems aren’t even a problem in the first place.

As for this case, this encounter with the stunning girl in Delhi was a drive for me to chase my dream and reminded me of my actual goal which I had set when I was 14.   
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Phir Milege (Fir Mi Leng Ge).
Dhanya Waad (Dan-nia Vad).

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This podcast is obviously has nothing to do with any sports. This is where I will analyse poems, song lyrics and scripts where there are subtexts that could mean anything but straight. I love to read or sometimes to song lyrics by certain artists, I will be like hmmmm did I hear that correctly? Did she just say refer to that person as she? Or sometimes like hmmm, is she talking about wanting to marry him or her?

Why I decided to this?
Okay, frankly I enjoyed going into this rabbit hole analysing and interpreting body language, eye contact and subtle touches. So, I am thinking why not share it with people who are interested to listen to my analysis, and I could at least go in-depth with it.

Alright, so basically, I would like to start a few of these episodes with the poems I have published in a book. Then, I will gradually add in new analysis from the collection of poems, song lyrics and scripts.


Just a disclaimer alert, my analysis will be just for entertainment and to see whether it make sense. So, let us have fun alright.
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In this episode, I will read a poem from one of my published book, Masterpiece in Your Heart. This series of prose poetry is expressed in a timeline, from the beginning when it all started. How some feelings can be so clear, yet the only solution I can think of is getting away from it.   
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I have chosen to start with a poem which was written on the 20 March 2014. This is, “Those Times Untold.”

The first time I met you 
I avoided looking into your eyes 

Unexpectedly 
Part of my heart was hooked 

The second time 
I consciously told myself not to again 
Avoiding the attraction you emitted 
Avoiding myself through this same old thing 
Repeatedly 
That will end up in disappointment 

This time 
We had the ample time 
To talk 
Share 

I swiftly opened the door for you 
But, you insisted I go ahead 
During that time 
I simply thought it was nothing 

This moment 
I am so glad you did that 
As I felt the only exception 
Though that gesture might be normal for you 
Your look of hope . . . probably 
That I should join in the dinner 
And that unexpected touch of your hand with mine 
Before we parted ways 

​The third time we met 
I was looking forward to it 

I did not expect that I would have the chance to sit beside you 
Let alone chat 
And be your partner 

I accepted the cake you offered 
Though I was not really into it 

You offered the door 
You made me felt different that day 
Just you talking to me 

Your smile and the way you speak 
Brightens my night 

That special day 
I remembered how flushed I felt 
Hopefully . . . not that blatant 

That unexpected hug made my night 

As of recent 
I could not stop myself 
From looking at the photos of us 
Taken candidly 
Molding comfortably 

Us, spaces away from the others 
At every scenes 

That short glance between us 
Was overwhelming 
That I will never understand 

Those times and moments 
You seem to be closer to me 
You and that person 
In many instances 

Just you and me 
Just three of us 

Seems intentional 
Or probably just my usual imagination
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His and your intelligence are a charm

The last time we met 
You were as appealing as you ever were 
That final touch 
Strong and natural 
Brightens my day 

I know once again 
It will just be this 
This untold and unspoken attraction 
That will last as it is 

Copyright of Author S.Sulianah (Winter Scribbler Publishing)
The poem above is from Masterpiece in Your Heart 2nd Edition The Platinum Edition written by S.Sulianah

We have heard many times that our eyes are the window to our soul. That means when we are happy, angry, excited or sad, it will be visible to others. But it also depends if the other person is close to us enough in some way that could feel because sometimes one couldn’t.

I am the type of person who will normally make sure I make eye contact with the other person I am talking to, when someone else does that to me, it means a lot. It will be like the other person is allowing me to walk with them on this route to how they think and feel.

And when it comes to someone whom we are into, it could also mean to fall deeper to that rabbit hole with them. That is why sometimes, if I am worried that I will fall in love with this gorgeous person, I will try to divert my eyes away from them.
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And have you tried using the magic of eye contact when you are flirting?
If yes you have done it before, how does it work for you?

I cannot believe that it is fun to try this and it actually works most of the time. So, sometimes doesn’t matter whether the girl is straight or not, it will work. There will be at the least I can see the slightest response to it such as smile, or returning that same look again. There was one time at a restaurant, genuinely I was flirting with the girl who served me and my friend. So at the end of the night when I went to make payment, she insisted her colleague that she would like to handle mine. Even though her colleague was like it is ok, he will do it. The girl insisted and she did end up managing my bill behind the counter.

Honestly, I enjoyed this flirting technique, which is the subtle version not the type where I will go to a person’s table and say hi, can I buy you a drink, type. And I love to see the outcome of it to what extent my capabilities and my guessing are accurate. Whether the person will be interested in me, or is she gay? Or is she straight but partly interested in women.
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Have you heard the meme or joke about this in tumblr or social media? Ermm how could actors not fall in love with their co-star in love scenes when I will fall in love and think about this stranger who opens the door for me for 6 months.

Opening the door for someone is common especially if the person looks like he or she needs your help. That is a sign of someone who is helpful, and courteous.

On the other hand, have you ever done something like this with someone whom you know and secretly interested in? At times, I will be the one who will open the door for my friends or random strangers if I am there by the door.

Normally if a guy opens the door for me, could be friends or strangers, it is a very nice gesture. But when a woman does that to me? Well, there is once in my lifetime especially when that is complemented with that slight smile. There is always that special smile that you think it is only meant for you. And I have been thinking about it since then.

She is actually a friend of one of my closest friends. On that day, I had been looking forward to talk to her all day. Then, we had this opportunity to chat while walking towards a fast food restaurant.

As natural as possible, I opened the door and invited her to go in first. Like usual, I will do that when I am interested in someone. That is like the 101 Guide to Flirting doesn’t matter whether you are straight or not. But then, she insisted not to enter. Instead, she gestured to me go ahead first while she holds the door. She did it with that shades of confidence, and that damn eye contact which I mentioned earlier. And like a normal human being, I melted.

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Games.
I am normally so competitive that I want to win in games. That is why sometimes I will sigh heavily when group of friends decided to play games. Then I have to act as if I am calm.

Coincidently on that day, I was paired up with this same person, this friend who opened the door for me. It was such a nerve wrecking situation. Not because I was being competitive or wants to win. This time, we were brought together on a same team, and it was a team of two. I know I feel tensed especially I have got to be so close to her. I can feel that and when I am tensed, I will be like a rock.

I mean ladies, don’t you all feel like that. You might have look forward to meeting this person you miss so much. Then when you finally meet her, you will be speechless, and it will be like a nerve-wrecking situation happens plus that awkward interaction. Like everything you planned before you meet her will be haywire in your brain cell. And then things like should I smile, should I laugh, should I stand next to her, all the “should I” will be in your head. Isn't it?
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When I wrote this poem, I was very detailed on the things that happened just so it will remind me in the future that even the smallest kindness could make me happy.

That is why, I even talked about the cake. We all love cake. I mean most of us, don’t we? Have you ladies experience a situation when you do not have any appetite but then someone you are into, gave you a slice of something. What did you do? So, this happened when she gave me a slice of pandan cake. I love pandan cake but that day I was like has no appetite. Frankly, is because she was right infront of me. I always don’t have the appetite when someone I have a crush on is there with me. I don’t knw why. I took it though, and emptied my plate in no time.
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When we began this episode, I talked about how eye contact is a route to a person’s heart. I would like to end it with the magnetic force of a smile.
Since I was small, my mum reminded me to smile to people including those we do not know and not to look so serious all the time. I remember everytime I looked serious, she will tell me not to frown and look friendly. Pffft.. Well, maybe it started from when I was small then.

Recently, I just realised about how our smile could have an impact to someone’s life.
Maybe our smile and our hi’s to a stranger or even to our neighbours could make a difference to them in some way. Maybe our smile could lighten up someone’s bad day. Maybe our smile could make someone forget about how bad their day was at work. Maybe our random smile to a stranger could make her or his day better. We dnt knw.

Then when I grow up, I realised that smiling could also be used as a tool to flirt.
There is this specific type of smile that I think could melt any individual’s heart. Someone could do it to you or you could do it to them.

But one thing I am sure is that one of the formulas to someone’s heart and soul is through that specific type of smile, that eye contact combines with the intention to flirt. That could make yours and that person’s day as beautiful as the blue sky.  

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Thank you for listening. And see you all soon!

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​Hi Guys. Welcome to Episode 2 of the WLW Women Love Women Podcast. I hope you guys have an amazing day today.

This episode, Epilogue of Hope, is named after one of the poems written in Masterpiece in Your Heart. As usual, I will start by reading the poems which was written on the 12th August 2015. And then, I will tell you the story of how this poem started.

I like the way you skidded your car to stop me 
I like the way you buzzed your car when you saw me 
I have been longing to meet you again 
Even though my heart whispers, “Please, don’t . . .” 

Your sudden appearance 
For weeks of lullaby to your absence 
Your presence is my distraction 

You are definitely an impossible 
We are an impossible 

I love how all these moments with you had evolved 
From ignoring my presence 
To how we are now 

Your smiles 
Your humor 
Your pleasantness 
Your warmth 
Your wit 

The good news
I could not hide my shade of dim 
The shadows of uncertainty 
The gloom of my smiles 

Mountains of walls begin to fence up 
Again 
Enveloping my thoughts 
Shackling my epilogue of hope

You see, I never believed stories or movies when the main character falls in love with the girl next door or boy next door, or they will be attracted to their neighbour, then look forward to meeting their neighbour at the corridor, or sharing food with their neighbour for flirting purpose. Just to be clear, I don’t believe it because I dnt see any potential with any neighbours of mine. Hmmm except for that one time I saw this girl years ago who randomly smiled at me while I was with my bike under the block. I guessed she just came back from studying overseas cos she was with her Caucasian friend with huge luggages. I cannot recognise her face though.

I was inspired to write this poem when reality happened to me.
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I realized that I kept looking forward to those time I could see this particular neighbour of mine. Every time I will find reasons to go downstairs, find reasons to go out to the nearby shops or even just walk by the area expecting that I could see her. I chose the best timing which will be like there is high probability I could “accidentally” meet with my neighbour downstairs. Sounds familiar? Yeah.. like in the movies that you don’t believe anything is even possible isn’t it?

A little backstory about her.
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Alright, this neighbour of mine has been staying in the same apartment block as mine for years. Her mum is like a family friend to my late grandmother’s. They have known each other for very long time. I knew them and I knows she exists, but I don’t remember seeing her around that often except for her mum.

The day when this started was during an election day. Me and my family coincide with her and her mum while we were heading to the voting station which is just a block away from ours. That was when I saw her up close the first time.

I have heard about her and seen her years years ago actually I couldn’t even remember when and how she looks.

During that election day, when we greet her mum, she didn’t say hi to me. Wait, I don’t remember whether she did but high chances is no. I heard rumours that she is the type who is not friendly, so I didn’t have that high expectation that she will greet me or my parents.

But becos she is quite gorgeous. Okay wait, quite is not the word to use here. She IS very attractive and literally stunning, and I am the type who like challenges so, what I did was to make the first move .. to smile and said hi to her.  She responded with a tiny, slight smile. That is it, you know. That is it all. In my heart, I was like, okay letz see to what extent you can be like that to me.
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Surprisingly, after that day, I see her quite often. Whenever we saw each other, she responded to my hi and goodbyes like we have known each other for years. We will stop and chat for awhile and all our subjects of conversations were like random. Nothing specific. I will find topics out of the blue. Or sometimes I will plan what to say when I meet her again beforehand.

Normally, I guessed accurately on the timing that we would meet “coincidentally”. U know like as if it is coincidence. It is either she was parking her car, or she is on the way out to work or she just came back from somewhere. Or I was like on my way to the shop, or I just came back from classes or work.

This goes on for about a year if I remember correctly. I had fun with those moments, and she was like a good distraction from my boring life.

Oh, there was one time I shared with her about my solo trip to London and Europe and then told her how I gave an excuse to my dad that I am going there for a short course (which I literally did), and then she go on and called me a brat.
I never felt happy to be called that in my life. Right, if you all meet me outside, you can use that as you wish to.

And one of my best moments with her that inspired me to write this specific poem, was when she was driving at the carpark. She just came back from somewhere while I was walking towards the café near my place.

She was driving to the area where she normally parks her car. Then, she skids the car elegantly and go about honking a few times at me.

Those were accompanied with her beaming smile like she was so happy. I acted cool though cos I saw her car before that happened and was prepared in advance in case she saw me.
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Okay as usual, there is always a point where our pining and anticipation for someone will stop.

She ended up getting married. From what I understand is that she was kind of being pressured to get married because of her age which I guessed probably in the mid-40s but she doesn’t look like one. I heard that finally, there is someone of her race or origin is interested in her.

Basically, of all those years, that year which I know her in person, this happened. How fated are all these?​
Babes, I was and am fine. This experience was like you know a great moment with someone I already know it is only a distraction to fill my days with wonderment.

Personally, it was also a good achievement for me that I could turn someone who is not friendly to me and find common grounds. I managed to the things I want like in those romcom girl next door. I managed to impress her with my baked pasta. Cooking for someone I like is like my typical signature move.​
We have heard many times that the first time we meet someone if we find them arrogant and dislike them for no reason, at some point they will ended up as your best friend or your spouse.
Well babes, this is one of those classic examples.​
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